My CRAZY life

HAHA U CANT BRING ME DOWN!!!

2010-01-23T17:27:00.001-08:00

wellll.

no problems

only in my head

so thats good...

i just read.

and say bad words in my head when my dad tries to piss me off.

yesterday i was soo badish.

i snuck my dress down day outfit to school cuz i don't like my dad saying that i can't

its my money

im not gonna let him make me look like a loser

or make me loose my identity.

and during lunch i lied to the vice principal

so my buds and i wouldn't get in trouble

....we rock. lol

i also ignored my rents

and texted on my moms phone.... which im not supposed to do.

so yea

it was a good bad day.

I wish...

i had

a crayon...wait no paint

and could color music with it.

that would be fun.

i need a new Facebook profile pic.

im getting a new crappy phone....yay

but no text. aw.

and i want something....sweet.....

but im eating a lot of junk today

but im not full...

im phat.

lol

not [

WOW.

2010-01-18T16:40:00.000-08:00

okay...so
hm,
U DO NOT LIKE INDIE SHARON.
and Greg is pretty hot.
he makes my want to practice my accent.
I not really sure what sup.
ASP
Academic
Support
Program
took away my job.
but I'm with awesome people.
and we had a good time!
I really don't get why the most real and awesome and talented
...non-retreaded people are in asp.
it makes me mad.
There may be a drama culminating...
maybe.
And I love mario. lol
but I like Luigi more.
I LOVE Luigi.
and I keep thinking about someone/thing
....i got mad.
OH and yesterday i went to the movies...
i could've seen some awesome movie...
like the lovely bones
but what do i see?
THE SPY NEXT DOOR.
having sibs sucks.
oh and i am gonna try to be psychic again...
thanks to that talk i had with my uncle...
so yea
thats all.

Hi.

2010-01-14T15:47:00.001-08:00

Okay...well life sucks.
grades suck.
im grounded.
I have no life
no freedom
arguments
i have no music to drown everything out.
I lost my job...
im not designer of the show anymore.
and im being replaced.
and i felt terrible.
but i thought a bit.
but I don't care because....i have other chances.
and they don't because I'm leaving.
and i had great ideas.
and im experienced.
but like i said... their loss

I started the whole....not giving a shit thing
it's helping.

and i've been talking to my other bestie
and she has problems like me.
and we talk and stuff during lunch and assembly.
we hang in the girls bathroom...
i know its weird but its fun.

I want to talk to sharon more...lol her last blog sounded like me.

I just want to let everything out and do as I'm told.
It's about time.

anywayyy.
i feel empty.
im not sure why.
but i feel an emptyness in my chest.
its like a hole or something eating away at my insides.
it bothers so much.
but like I said
i dont know why i have it.

and I cant draw...or anything.
im so uninspired.

and my uncle has an open relationship...(ew. hes not okay)

and im reading a lot.

life isn't going my way
(not like it ever did)

so....now what?

So?

2010-01-11T11:54:00.000-08:00

Okay.
i decided to be ....better
by not giving a crap about things
im happier now.
I miss my ipod though.
I'm only on the computer because my parents are taking my sis to the hospital and I'm alone..with my bro.
I can't tolareate being away from the computer 4 so long.
I'm a victim.

I hung out with my awesome uncle this week.
He's awesome.
and not like my parents.
He has different beliefs and ideas.
LIKE ME!!!! lol.

....I don't know what to say now.
hm.
OH WELL.

Thoughts...as usual

2010-01-06T16:07:00.000-08:00

I saw this site in a magazine....now im reading ths story
http://inkpop.com/projects/5416/the-scars-we-hide/read-project/#chapter

it's kinda amazing.

h emotieone could just put every thing....every emotion into words
while i have a hard time saying most of the things that end up in my head.

I like emotional stuff.
I like sad parts in movies because I like crying.
I like dramatic songs because I feel more in them.
I like graphic pictures because they show more than most things can. (no fake similar smiles)
etc.
They are real.
unlike...a lot of things.

I guess dramatic stuff is how I speak....except noone actually listens.
The don't look me in the eyes.

Theres a thing with eyes.
they are my favorite facial feature.
Not for any reason besides the fact that so much hides behind them.
I can tell.
(i guess its part of my reading people thing....)
Theres something different when people are being fake.
and when they don't mean things.

so idk what i can say.....
people need to be more real.

so...yea....i gtg....parents being ugh.
(ugh means ANNOYING AS HELL b.t.w)

back at this...

2010-01-04T18:16:00.000-08:00

I had a bad day.
oh well.

.......i'll just dislike my dad....as usual.
other than that i came home and
ate honey/vanilla ice cream
which is amazing
and chatted with strangers.

so being at home was nice.

im waiting till friday.
when my life ends...
i always say that at the end of a marking period.

hm.
ima read.
reading is good 4 me.
and i wanna finish my book...i have ela to do.
ew.

im trying to remember all the times i messed up.
.....many times.
manymanymanymany times.
per day.

so how do i fix this....
hm.
research?....(good idea)
(i am not a nerd)
....that was me thinking life was as easy as
googling your problems and finding the cure at google diagnostics or whatever.
that. is. sad.
so if i messed up and you know me...sorry.
idk....it was quite random.

i am quite calm right now....except my heart is beating harder than usual.
like i expect something.
but idk what.
(maybe my grades guilt and punishment?)

SUBJECT CHANGE

i like playing with my fingers....like trying to keep them still
but then they start to shake
or move a bit
and i can't control it.
and when im nervous
or bored
my fingers try to type...or play
imaginary keys.

and do other strange patterns in movement.
its kind of haunting.

....and i am easily entertained.

thoughts.

2010-01-03T19:52:00.000-08:00

last night...i was up till 3 am...as usual.
and i was reading a book.
called looking 4 alaska
its good.
Alaska is one crazy chick.
but 1 thought wouldn't let me sleep.
the thought that i am not...different.
that im like everyone else who just so happen to be my age.
so
......now what?
yea.
thats it.
lol

another year. ew.

2010-01-03T17:41:00.000-08:00

so im older.
wee.
today kinda sucked.
went to the metropolitan museum..it was more fun to my uncle -.-
then i ate with his buds
and i hung wit ma cuzzies at my grandmas
my parents are giving me a crapppy cell 4 my b-day.
cuz im irresponsible.
but i got galaxy!!!! wee.
no party or anything.
idrc.
when you grow up these things become less important.
lol.

i hate getting older.
every year i get closer to reality.
id rather die than wake up.
not that im suicidal.
lol
im not.

i just dont think things would turn out well.
blah.
lol
blah.
ugh school tomorrow....ugh.
gtg...hw nite!

hm..The new Years resolution

2010-01-02T17:52:00.000-08:00

The new years Resolution
tHe NeW YeaRs resOLUtion.
the New years Resolution....
hm
that reminds me
Of this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrOMu-lmfnI

okay done stalling...
here are
my hopes 4 this year
and
my resolutions...

to try hard to do well...and actually go to powerschool to check my grades
to....do something risky and spontaneous...
to have things turn out different.
get a mac
to work on my whole carrer thing
to move so i dont have to go to a crappy city school (this has negitives and positives)
to talk to new people
to avoid the whole....thing that happened last year. (not working out btw)
to eat more chocolate
to be aware of whats going on
to be less of a fuckup
hang with people outside of school more.
reinvent constantly.
be as creative as possible
play with my wardrobe
to read more
to talk to Sharon more
to ruin some lives...or have some part in that...or at least watch.
finish my musical and get it on broadway
listen to newer people...and add more to my ipod. work on my genre.
to listen to green day and fall out boy more (i have a new appreciation)
get that new cd...whatever it takes
......go to a concert. a good concert.
meet P!ATD or fob or Cristopher Drew and be a fangirl
...and yea i think thats it....

yup long list

good plans

im growing up. (ew)

hm yesterday i was watching the 100 most shocking music moments on VH1.

and it was late and i was kinda freaked out and I was thinking and I thought...

music can be tragic and amazing and dark and emotional.

and so is life

leading to the conclusion

Music=Life

and hey....tomorrow is my birthday.
it doesn't feel like it.
im getting another phone
my hair is shorter.

im going to be different...time does that to people
i cant wait to read everything all over again one day
that day will be the day i know im well off...

lol.
-sigh-
life is funny.

time is funnier.

blah is a good word.

2009-12-29T18:27:00.000-08:00

I am doing nothing.
....besides sucking at super mario bros. for wii.
now i want to play pokemon.
............im not doing as much as i expected
and i miss my buds.
the whole voiding thought thing helped...
but diddn't work
....now i want my ipod.
im a bit out of place.
i think its because my hair is different.
or something.

and i just started thinking about the teenager lifestyle.

how we all use the same sites
have the same problems
how adults think of us....
.....and how we all think we are messed up

we should start something...
a revolution.
like how a long time ago people thought we would run the world.
we should.
we think differently.
we are in between everything,

lol......im not sure what is going on in the noggin.
im acting all visionary.

but cmon nonexistent readers...consider it!

and sharon....u suck
...how do i get a c-box?

and why is it that the world makes it seem as if i ruined my life because of middle school.
im not tha kind of person
the school ruined this part of my life
but i have time
i just need a newer start....
suburbs here i come!!!
(hopefully)

got grounded.... -.-

got new braces
purple and yellow.

my parents least favorite color.... ^-^

OH AND SHARONNNN

2009-12-26T17:20:00.001-08:00

oh and Sharon....I was an N*SYNC fan.
TAKE THAT!!!
lol.
ily.

VAYCAYYYYYYY. much needed.

2009-12-26T14:04:00.000-08:00

I am really happy....
lots o' presents.
and the rels are awesome.
I don't have much to say besides I'm really....
confused.
I am not going to say why....
I don't want to think about it.
too many positives and negatives and such.
so I'm just avoiding it.
I really am.
It's better this way.

My cousin says I laugh 4 no reason
I'm laughing.

I was talking to my aunt yesterday about all my cousins.
she said I have ghetto cousins, Hispanic cousins, smart cousins...and I'm the white one
LOL
yup.
i sure am.

nothing else to say,
cuz...you know...I'm avoiding thought.

BYE!!!

Personals.

2009-12-22T21:11:00.000-08:00

I think it's about time I explain myself a bit....because sometimes I feel like such a contradiction.
My opinions change at certain times....actually pretty often...it's constant reinvention.

Theres...

Teenager me- The obvious teenager who would argue for small things and would be overemotional and such...and I also tend to talk about friends and hobbies. Listens to a lot of music...leads to the following personals in extreme situations.
Really happy me- I get loud...very loud....peppy,unrealistic...etc. LOL. usually triggered by good days.
Really..idk me- I'm at a midpoint between happy me and depressed me....something is in the way of letting me be either really happy or really depressed.
depressed me- Doesn't last too long, usually days at a time unless something bad or depressing happens. I would listen to my ipod and sit and think, maybe a picture or idea would come up.
Late night me- Yes. when I stay up late I am a different kind of person, I am happy and I think and I'm calm and inspired. The quiet and lonely helps.

Today I was depressed for about 15 minutes...why?

well thoughts.

about people.

.....who seem to have things much better off.

and I wonder when somthing will happen...

bad enough to make her seem normal.

(I know bad.but I kinda want to see it.)

I want to see when I'll be the same way.

I'm not sure.

and I thought about how close this person seems to perfection.

and how my Sharon said I'm like her that 1 time....

even though she seems to be like me in a better way...

almost....a better version.

and I was angered.

does this make me a bad person????

I just want life to actually be fair.

and 4 our school I have to make this person...pretty.

pretty for everyone to see and not give me much credit for.

and once again I would be overshadowed...

and...well...."it" would... never mind...

ugh.

The last time I felt like this...I looked up.

and wrote this down

"Like an old ceiling....you think it is perfect but all you need is a good look (or a ladder) to see all the cracks"

...I don't really know how to feel about this quote...

everything else was fine

well except when I saw my friend cry....

It was strange....someone like her in such a position...

like I found a weakpoint.

It was depressing.

I loveeee her.

shes really different from other people...

then again...all my close friends are....they are real.

In different ways of course.

Oh and Sofia...if you read this.... 4get everything u read and replace it all with this: He Is Perfect.

so yea...I think thats it.

Splinters. (idk)

2009-12-18T21:52:00.000-08:00

Life can be pretty crappy.
but it's not always that bad.
but everything in my life always tries to balance itself out most of the time...idk how but it always happens.
If my day seems to be going well...something ruins it and just ruins my day.
but also...
If something didn't turn out too well something better happens to cushion the blow.
It's weird and very frustrating.
But I'm doing well....
like the whole week was terrible and unsocial...but today everything turned out ...well.
Pros:

I got to use the computer without getting in trouble.
I'm staying up late watching tv and chatting
I got to spend lunch with my friends
I was inspired for my musical and did a decent amount of work.
I snuck out of school and left an hour early...i felt pretty badass. lol

Cons:

I was exsuasted after lunch
my sis and I got into a fight like ...3 times
I think someone got mad at me
I accidentally deleted a lot of music from my ipod.
and the usual.....

but yea today was an overall good.

I'm happy about that.

I want to write a song... a good song with a lot of meaning and metaphors

so everyone would see something different and try to read it.

thats a bit impossible though cuz....

I can't write a song...I've tried.
Writing a song requires some sort of emotion...if you give off one emotion, thats all people will pick up.

SUBJECT CHANGE

I dislike how people favortize things...like the seasons and times of the day

That doesn't really matter does it?

We need to focus on the world...enjoy it. live in it.

and you can't do that if you are always complaining about how much you hate the cold, or the heat.
Or anything else.....why would you complain when breath is such an amazing gift.
we are all guilty of taking everything for granted,
and we shouldn't
We were put in this expanded universe to...live. I guess
becaue thats all we really need to do.
if you get down to it....we dont even need to know what we know
we just think we do.

....that is some sort of rant.

i rant a lot.

.....maybe because its late?

oh well.

I should stop.

nite!

watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUvfFKHkKno
I'd fall asleep to this song if i could...
I like it on piano though,
(the guy is pretty cute too :D...insane and such)

Love. Living. Breathing

2009-12-17T20:14:00.000-08:00

Some of the greater things in life are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream...
Anonymous

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
Anonymous

I don't usually look at quotes... They stood out.

I just came from church...it was nice.
Then theres the ride home
My brother takes off his shoe I tell him to do it himself so I could get on with my life.
I listen to On the Brightside and was pretty positive when my dad comes in and tells me to lower the volume of my voice!!!! MY VOICE WASN'T EVEN THAT LOUD!!! It was like how I talk....
And I tell him no because I didn't want him to ruin my mood, he could hear my mom just fine and he had the radio on!!! and he tells me no!!! I am just pissed to I turn off my ipod...on my way out my bro still doesn't have his shoe on and I have to leave the car because my mom pushed me out and my sis starts nagging at me about how I didn't do that and such and we keep arguing about different things and my whole day's overall good mood (coming from a decent day at school...I met the puppeteer of/and Tully from sesame street, I apologized to my ex 4 being a bish, I had a nice convo with my math coach).....Now i just wanted everyone to shut up...eventually my sis stopped talking but then my DAD comes in and starts saying what he aid before "You don't have to stop singing, just sing in a lower voice" (how an I supposed to express myself and feel and let out emotions like that???!!) so I tell him it isn't fair and I have a right to sing...thats when he said "I don't care what you think."
And it all just clicked...I was speechless. He left and I burst into sobs.
He ...doesn't care what I think. And my mom sided with him.
...It hurt...a lot.
I'm a person and all I want is to be heard.
They gave birth to me and are supposed to love me the most,
And I wasn't born to follow all his orders.
...or be ignored.
Whats the point in life when noone wants to hear you.
What are we without our voice?

He then called me mal cria (or however you spell it)
He thinks I'm spoiled.
I don't care what he thinks.
I have rights as a human.

Heres the song thats in my head right now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcnOC8xs_Ew

I was listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEW3NPKLQjs at church today. Thats when my church
friend starts to cry. Her sister had a miscarriage and sent Her the photo of the dead baby....isn't that weird.

I'm a bit depressed...and I've been so anti-social because of math. I swear today I almost thought I lost a friend and tied to convince myself that I didn't care (about it...or them)... luckily I didn't and sadly I do.
-sigh-
life.
I guess I should just breathe. and finish my homework, and listen to my ipod, and stare at the dark...listen to the silence as I try to sleep my thoughts away.

oh and sharon's last blog is amazing...I swear I felt like that at some point.
I don't belive in love that much though.
.....at least not anymore
just music.

night.

LOL....

2009-12-15T19:08:00.000-08:00

My buddi hacked into my account to see if I talk about her behind my back...I don't lol.
I do think I'm a good friend....
Sharon has been crushing on several people...I think her new nonmeetable crush was inspired by my last blog...i am flattered.
I love cute redheads lol.
Christofer's name is Christopher Drew Ingle
and I love him. (and Brendon and Ryan)
....and fob's music
speaking of...today i went shopping and got tights and a cute teal tee shirt and it seemed like a good day until my parents had one of the WORST ARGUMENTS EVER!!!! so i sat there kinda mad and I couldn't hear my ipod so i brought the volume to it's highest (it was pretty loud) It drowned everything out...and then I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance starts to play.....and I'm like...."ironic" then a little bit longer by the Jonas Brothers (whom of which i am not obsessed with) started to play......it was so odd and i could picture images and like music videos in my head (I do that sometimes) and I was fine.
Oh and during my elective....ragtime (based on the musical)
We heard music from musicals and i heard different versions...
most of them were glee,and wicked, and rockish based musicals like that...they made me mad AND WHEN THE PEOPLE (AND THAT PERSON) STARTED SINGING IT I WAS GONNA YELL!!, But what i really really liked was the one for Sweeney Todd...It was insane in a subtle way I love how the music told more than the lyrics did...I love insanity....the whole idea and complications i can't help but understand...or try to understand...I think I do...what I don't understand is my crazy ex-bud Orian...but i won't be seeing her for a while so...yah.

I want a guy who is slightly insane...in the harmless kind of way...my way.

I wanna see Sweeney Todd.
I want someone to get what I'm trying to say

I love music...and my music makeover...im changing a bit ...i can feel it

WELLL....

2009-12-14T18:32:00.000-08:00

I have some things to say...(as usual)

THIS GIRL MAKES ME UBER MAD....LIKE UBER UBER MAD...AND SHARON SAYS IM LIKE HER...just cuz shes dating ma ex...NEVER
as usual i was reading sharons blog and well...NO SHARON I GET TERRIBLE GUYS...I HATE IT!...i hate the school too...my mom and i saw the notebook but diddnt cry much.titanic is a completly different senario...and NO SNUGGIES
I celebrated Hanukkah with my Bestie Sofia and her awesome buds and my awesome buds...making me part Jewish! lol
H1N1 is what will lead to the zombie apocalypse...prepare
I just yelled at my sis...she makes me mad as hell....UGH!
I am loving music right now... Panic! At The Disco especially...mostly alternative rock...but my kind of rock isn't like Sharon's shes a bit boy band/soft I'm in between hers (except i don't like boybands that much) and my (long lost yet not actual) twin Anissa (she likes screamo though...)
I'm prepared to leave my school.
I finally learned to work iTunes and limewire...this is one of my proudest accomplishments (keeping Listerine in my mouth for more than 10 seconds is the other)
Sex ed...the most useful class taught me how to kill a rapist.
I love Never Shout Never
Ive been thinking about how I want my perfect guy to be because I tend to fall for people who aren't worth falling for...I want a Brendon Urie Or Ryan Ross (from Panic! at the disco..well actually Ryan left...but you get my point) I also like Christofer Drew (According to Sharon)...or Chris Ingle (if thats his name..it's one of those 2) from Never Shout Never. you see... Brendon is an amazing singer and seems to be a fun (and funny) yet compassionate entertainer...Ryan is shyer and a lyricist but can be just as funny as Brendon...but he is more passionate. Chris seems to be simple and unafraid of personality or emotion and would be blunt and adoring...so I decided to wait and search for my Chris,Ryan, Brendon or strange hybrid of all three...(kinda sad but this is a personal promise)
the promise i made myself ^ helped me a lottt....It's made me more open and less guy obsessed and desperate...and I talked to the guy who I used to facebook stalk and it wasn't weird at all...lol
I hate how my social life is...besides having the most amazing best friends I am a bit reserved. It's also the fact that I go up for math lunch everyday to save my grade...(I have no choice).... I miss people...and their voices.
I want to hear midnight scilence
luckly my brain has worked as an ipod making things a bit better and when I really do listen to my ipod everything disappears for at least a while...it's amazing what music can do to a person even for a few minutes....the secret language of sound is understood by all of us....the only language that understands us too...music is the only uncomplicated unquestioned thing we have created...the only true magic on this planet.

Well I think thats it...so whoever reads this...turn on your ipod...you probably need it too.

hm....

2009-12-04T17:15:00.000-08:00

not much going on...
well
I AM WRITING MY MUSICAL
i got the plot...
i just need to organize and script it,
its soo cool.
its based on panic at the disco.
i became obsessed.
2 years late...BUT MUSIC IS AGELESS, in a way
i cant wait 4 the new cd
and
also.....theres a lot of hecticness around here lately
I also made plans to work in my school musical
as an actress and designer
......idk how things would work but it seems pretty good.
i really want soda.
this was a productive week.
now im just downloading music
...ima go get a soda now lol
cyas

my weekend is pretty stupid.

2009-11-28T14:57:00.000-08:00

my weekend is pretty stupid.
negitive but true :(

Thanksgiving: saw the parade....noone wanted to come over besides grandma and her weird bf (yes bf) and my great great greandpa. we ate, they talked, I watched an avatar marathon.
then my dad wanteds me to come with him when he dropped them off....i usually have no choice but to go...THEN HE STARTS A DUMB LECTURE ABOUT GOD AND STUFF...the same thing that happens everytime im alone with him!

Friday: we go to the mall to get most of our (awesome) christmas gifts.

i got

clothes (the cute kind)
a new wii game (the new mario 1)
a new wii remote (pink!)
etc.

but i may get more.
then by 4 o'clock i was home -.-

and today...
i did
nothing.
well right now im at the sitters cuz

my parents STILL don't trust me home alone
they are going on a double date with my uncle and his (crazy) wife and they are going to eat at a nice NYC resturant and are going to see In The Heights..

i saw it but my parents NEVER do this with me..they don't even go NEAR that part of the city with us. :'(

i want to go to school in NJ.
why?
cuz i want to go to a suburbian school...and it will help my now destroyed school record.
..and i dont think ill get to go to Fashion industries for high school (good luck sharon!)

i feel so boring and slow and uninspired....
everything is too plain for me.
and im sick of everything

my annoying school where they are always a grade ahead..and I'm not.
my boring apartment
always being grounded
my dad who talks about me with my mom while im in the back seat
feeling like im not going anywhere and im not good enough...like i need to be fixed or something

honestly...i have no clue where things are going.

-sigh- so much for an awesome vacation.

and sharon lay off the mysterygoogle...
and im petiter than u!! lol

UGH!!!

2009-11-23T18:25:00.000-08:00

hmmm.
I don't have much going on..
besides my hear being strangled by barbed wire pic.
and my emotions
and
...........
SOME PEOPLE

and my dad...we keep arguing. sharon is right about him
i swear i would be the same way. and yea idk how she does it. being all tolerable 4 so long
i wouldn't be....i guess shes just a good bud ^-^

and other people....

not my best time elapse

i like this though. it lightens my emotions.
lol

http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c364/carrielynne1/cute-emo-guys/cute-emo-12.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.ohmyspace.com/imagescuteemo.html&h=339&w=330&sz=28&tbnid=m9d9cZzTwQm6fM:&tbnh=119&tbnw=116&prev=/images%3Fq%3Demo%2Bpics&usg=__6b5u8_qIl_RqPPgN6Ik0js3C0f0=&ei=jkILS9bOF4_RlAfi8Z2QBA&sa=X&oi=image_result&resnum=4&ct=image&ved=0CA0Q9QEwAw

tht is one long url.

this one is MUCH better

http://www.ponandzi.com/index.php

or this one.

http://www.azuzephre.net/azuzephre.net_-_The_Art_of_Jeff_Thomas/Home.html

i will try.
(message to....)

tah tah 4 now!!!

Mondays....not as bad as other days.

2009-11-16T16:01:00.000-08:00

I usually dislike mondays
it wasn't too bad
but for some reason...
Wednesdays HATE me.
I did get an annoying dad talk....

i didn't do the plan
but i flirted a lot!!!
and
I really like Panic at The Disco
WAITING 4 THE COMEBACK!!!!
they are one of the personalities for my musical...

I think I'll work on that

and
honey mustard pringles
...do taste like honey mustard
thought you should know.

I also like the pizza, cheddar, sour cream and onion, and ranch ones...

I think my dream gift is one can of every flavor of pringles
haha

AGH!....i must be crazy

2009-11-15T16:16:00.001-08:00

omg.
i feel like crying...
4 NO REASON
im actually really happy.

lol
i want more views.
but i want them all to be strangers
so they don't judge me
and still get to see inside my head.
lol.....
i don't get today.

Oh...and

2009-11-15T16:02:00.000-08:00

i just feel like mentioning how everyone feels as if theres something wrong with them.
all my friends do...
and so do some random bloggers.
just because they question the world.
or are unique.

.....or some other reason
theres something wrong

maybe there is....
but we are not alone.
at least i don't think we are

cuz...

well, we could be wrong together.
because thats apparently how things are meant to be.
lol.

HMPH.

2009-11-15T15:49:00.000-08:00

i didn't write somthing else....lol...sad
today was pretty good...but i didn't do my hw.
-pouts-
today i...

cleaned my bathroom
cleaned my room
organized a binder..kinda
learned what mystery Google is.
and ...this

and even though i didn't do anything awesome...i feel like i did.

.......sofia did what i was complaining about not doing yesterday.....GAR

sigh.
i love me
and my blues clues tee.
oh and i have to REALLY do the plan tomorrow..
now i have to calm me down
and ...yea.....i thought it was over :(
!!!!!!

and.....sharon said I can have Justin Beiber....cuz she has Jake T. Austin
.....WIN!

saturdays....

2009-11-14T15:03:00.000-08:00

Today...

I decided to write a blog...haha after talking to Sharon
my aunt came this morning......idk why,
Listened to my ipod.
Went on shopbop.com
avoided hw.
though about how suckish my life is compared to those who...

DON'T live in apartments
Have cash and stuff
Are free enough to leave their homes and explore

All I really want is to explore the city....instead of being trapped here
.....I'm really bored

I made a new blog though!!

it's so I can add pictures of people, fashion and post ideas!!!

So yea.

thats all 4 today.

U KNOW WHAT??? I MIGHT WRITE SOMETHING ELSE THATS SMARTER AND DEEPER LATER.

Isn't life wonderful?

oh......and i like justin beiber...hes cute....and i like his hair.

....

2009-11-13T15:10:00.001-08:00

my fellow bloggers use their blogs to talk about their BABIES!!!!!
....I'm kindah scared......I WILL NOT DO THAT WHEN I'M OLD
THIS IS EXPRESSION AND OPINIONS!!!!
NOT SHOWOff CENTRAL.....GAWD
LOL
....just needed to say something....

how do i get blog comments....hm
...oh 31 views....SWEET!

oh and sharon and I have telepathic connected brains...
...lol!!!

Another day another weird.....somthing

2009-11-13T14:47:00.000-08:00

MA BESTIE GOTS A BLOG!!
read it....shes kinda like me only in jewnerdhippieawesomeness verion
lol
anyway...
today was someday.
one day in which i am not thinking.
just living.
I laughed a lot.
And during creative arts I drew my own eye.

I always wanted to do it
but didn't
because....well idk....it wouldn't make sense...
and i wouldn't have taken it seriously.
and I love eyes....they are my favorite feature.....they seem to hold everything.
BUT I HATE MINE...they are all brown and stuff
I want hazel eyes like my moms...and i won't hide myself with stupid color contacts...
what kind of person would I be if i did that?

I saw ragtime in school...it was interesting
and historical.
WHEN WE WERE GOING HOME, MY BUDDIS (including Sofia^)
were walking home
WHEN WE SEE AN ACTOR AND THE DIRECTOR JUST SITTING IN A DINER.
AND I WANTED TO GO IN AND HUG HIM
....cuz he hugs this girl a lot in this show and that means he must be a REALLLY REALLLYY good hugger by now
and why does the girl he hugs in the show get to be the only one who hugs him?????...HUH?
so my new life goal is to hug him....
and I WILLL
.....somehow
U HEAR THAT TATEH (the dude)
I WILL HUG U!!!!!!!!!

and
i plan to make a musical.
about teens (cuz im an expert...kinda)
but each one is a human embodiment of a band.
and they will sing their songs and such.

lol...i love my idea...I'm working on it.
with Sofia
lol

....IM WATCHING AN AVATAR MARATHON....as usual
gawd i need a soda...cola...

I love this blog.
....and Zuko.
and my made up character,
and such
^-^

When I have a computer

2009-11-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

About the title...I'm grounded....grades
but i'll write here whenever possible....like now!

On friday I thought a lot.
I read and I was in space.
And i didn't talk to people much after school...i didn't even txt
I listened to desperate love songs and read Bleed...
idk y
...or do i

Yesterday i was at my cousins 15th birthday party.
It was nice.
I have not actual distant rels who know/are related to my cousin
i mean I've been seeing them at these parties for years but i ignored most of them...not this time lol.

Today i went to church
and did hw
i've been thinking a lottt.
i like to think
but i think wayyyy too much
....i got my friend mad at me. (want explain further)
Subject change....
I look up to people....
doesn't everyone
lol heres one of my many lists...

Idols...favorite people

Hayley Williams- Because shes short and loud and rebellious (what I want to be)...and Paramore's songs are AMAZING.
Lady Gaga- Because shes crazy and doesn't give a damn
Ellen- Best talk show host .period.
http://www.theuniformproject.com/ this girl is so creative and inventive and has the WACKIEST things...me and my fashion
Joel Mchale......he's awesome
Craig Ferguson...also awesome
Mearl Aremian from this book called bleed by Laurie Faria Stolarz
And Charlie from the perks of being a wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

so.....yah lol

I stole bleed from Sharon

she doesn't know i have it

but i do

Daniela gave it to me on friday.

I don't think I'll give it back

I like it too much...it makes me think

I'll just "leave it at home"

sorry Sharon

lol

^-^

MLIA made my day

2009-11-05T18:39:00.000-08:00

No much happened school presentation.
Then i came home
Read MLIA's
and my parents are now arguing...not new
it will e over by later tomorrow.
I hate adults. Not personally but their nature.
They act like they are the smartest people
and want to know everything
but it's not always about experience
It's about thought.
I asked my mom what superpower she would pick one day
She told me she never thought about it.
I was depressed about that.
She seems to be all business.
never in the daze I feel like I'm always in
I might be the girl paramore sings about in Brick By Boring Brick
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7QgqHwd7Y8
(I also like the male version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7QgqHwd7Y8
and the kid version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09G2dRW73LQ&feature=related )
....i bet she already knows how everything will be for her in 5 years

I just can't help but wonder....what does she think about before she goes to sleep.

Ok....

2009-11-03T11:34:00.000-08:00

At the sitters....doing hw....not a gud way to spend a free day.,
MY PLAN DID NOT WORK!!!! CUZ IM A CHICKEN!!!!

MY GRADES SUCK...AS USUAL
MY FRIEND IS MAKING THINGS HARD
MY OTHER FRIEND PROBBABLY HATES ME
AND THIS CHICK NAMED BRITT MAKES ME MAD!!!
.....stupid britt....
with her fb comments
and million complimented pics
and bf
and her cute clothes
.....yup ...im pissed
just wait....
oh and sharon has a better chance of being phychic.... tht sux!!!!
......bursting my bubble like that :(
....not that i dont want her to have powers...i just want us to be....equalish.
and my friends keep saying the plan dude likes me
LIES LIES LIESSSSS!!!!
hahaha no. im not smart whatever she happens to be compared to misss sunshine <---My opposite (which justifies why he wouldn't like my making my plan a FAIL)
or the real deserving one (hippie nerd) ..who is really smart
or pretty compared to britt.........
so yah plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz just plz

"Come one, come all you're just in time to witness my first breakdown"
~ATL

but i want this blog to mean somthing
i want a stranger to get inside my head and try to see how i work but can
so i want to talk about somthing"

my grades suck,
maybe because im lazy
maybe because of my "ADD"
but im not sure.
i mean im told im am AMAZING designer '
and im nice and i have a pretty decent amount of personality

and nobody grades me for that
noone seems to care about teh smile i put on my friends face when shes upset
or the time i waste listening to them and trying to confort them.
noone grades me for my "natural talent"
or my imagination
or witty outlook on life (usually)
and even though i have all of there
noone seems to care
it's all about a precentage on a peice of paper
and
no matter how "wonderful" i seem to be
i cant make it anywhere.
sharon is the same way....shes an amazing artist...and things differently (in a good way)
in diversity workshop we took a class
about different kinds of smart
Aurel (the wiseass) said it was pointless and made no sanse
but i understood it perfectly.....
people are smart at somethings
and i figured...im just smart when it comes to those
Aurel isn't smart when it comes to not being a wiseass
(hes awesome though)
......i dont understand this world
it's full of paradoxes.....

wimp it up!

2009-11-01T17:32:00.000-08:00

ok i am a wimp...I COULDN'T DO MY PLAN. I have good reasons though....i really do
halloween was so/so
went to the bronx zoo
saw ghost adventures
haha......

and
Sharon and sum ppl r talking about psychic ability..
i can talk to animals (i swear!!!!) and I talked to a peacock at the zoo too!

and
took this quiz
http://test.psychiccourses.com/index.php
...heres my result......

How to read your chart: The points of the inner star have been plotted onto the chart to reveal the extent of your abilities in each area. The score in each ability gives you an idea what best to pursue first and where you will have the greatest success

Your personal chart and PsiQ rating

Psi Q test results - your score out of ten.

Telepathy/Empathy	06
Clairvoyance/Remote Viewing	05
Psychokinesis	05
Precognition	07
Channeling	06

Score: How to rate your points in brief

Telepathy	0-3 Poor	4-6 Good	7-10 Excellent
Clairvoyance	0-3 Average	4-5 Good	6+ Exceptional
Psychokinesis	0-5 Average	6-8 Good	9+ Amazing
Precognition	0-3 Poor	4-7 Good	8-10 Excellent
Channeling	0-3 Poor	4-7 Very Good	8-10 Talented

This is a brief guide of your psychic abilities. For a detailed

thats all....
i just want yo be like my invented avatar character and this is where it leads me....beh haha

BLAST TO THE PAST

2009-10-27T19:35:00.000-07:00

I am reading old blog posts...I'm different
it's amazing how different experiences change you.
I don't know
but I just don't think anyone has a stable identity anymore
I sure don't
I sometimes say I have multiple personality disorder (but on the inside)
on the outside I'm regular crazy Ambar
....I like alternative rock...haha
I'm gonna add color to this blog....for old times sake
...if u wanna c
thats what the archives are for...
....WHO EVEN READS THIS BLOG????? lol

At the orthadontist...

2009-10-27T14:12:00.000-07:00

Okay so I'm at the orthadontist'z with Sharon..using her itouch to type this...ik this is odd nut Im not too crazy about the guy...he looks at my teeth too much...lol yah ik he's supposed to but still and he has no sense of humor lol
I got black and pink braces
I already miss my red and teal ones :(
I want food
at lunch I got mad cuz people always steal my food... My plan is eh I stole a sweater lol
I steal things at times
I also kissed his forhead
I may take the thing a bit further (ik u dnt know what I mean but you will)

...Sharon is so lucky she doesn't need braces.

My parentS were soo mean when I got into the cAr juSt because the teacher let my go late! Then the got all mean because I txted until 12 am last night but I did hw 2...not that they care
then they got all mean because I took the sweater from a guy
my dad is All like "he might be sick or diseased"....the poor kid just has allergies...i won't die...

and my mom read my texts!!!! I mean geez! CAN I GET ANY PERSONAL SPACE AROUND HERE.....what kind of world is this????

(now at 10:17 pm)
home after church
and after the orthodontist my parents went to look at and amazing and expensive house which made me and Sharon think....when we think....things get odd
we saw a 5 bedroom penthouse with a HUGE terrace where
we thought about throwing a huge party
and we planned on sharing the house between families so we could always be together...and have twice the amount of stuff and share a room and stuff
or we could at least share the building....
I liked those thoughts....even though they were impossibilities

...now my dad wants me to pray...UGH
he just doesn't get why I'm not too into the whole church thing
....ugh
gawd
I feel hectic
lol
oh well
...at least I got cheese fries. ^-^
...I think I take things a LOT better than I should...lol

well....

2009-10-26T17:56:00.000-07:00

haha what a horrible day...
i have hw
and my plans not working
and my dude bud s being more emotional and blah than me
Mondays stinkkkkk....
my plan isn't working....anymore....
:(
my *riend so*ia says i should take it a step *urther.
i love strawberry ice cream lol
and i can talk to Taylor/Pikachu my turtle....we have short conversations now...lol
and
um
i hate hw.....UGH IT DRIVES ME MAD~~!!!!!!

WHOA I WAS LIKE WHOA....IDK

2009-10-25T14:24:00.000-07:00

I loveeeeee My Li*e is Average
haha....
whats been up with me u ask...
well theres

evil revenge plan
2 cute guys
*acebook stalking (im stalking one o* the cute guys)
hw hw hw hw hw hw
dressing up
halloween plans
irony
etc etc etc.

is that bad.....(the stalking part)

I mean I only do it because I always wanted to stalk someone..

but now hes all scared

....wimp

I *eel bad about it though :(

I unlike 2 o* my best *riends care i* someone doesn't like me

its an odd guilt thing.

I got a chictopia

I'm ambernyc

but idk

I'm not to....con*ident about using it

haha

people probably won't notice a short 13 yea old wearing crazy against-the-trend or twisting-the-trend things

I also need help

I have distraction issues

I can't wait till halloween

i am going to be a dead *ariy 4 the dance

but on halloween i want to be thiss...

http://images.buycostumes.com/mgen/merchandiser/31030.jpg

so did sharon haha!!!

we didn't even talk to each other abot the costume...

great minds think alike I suppose.

right now shes complaining about a camera...she wants one

I'm hungery... :(

I also like...wait no...love....wait no...ADORE paramore and their new cd!!!! gawd they rock!!!
I listen to them a lot.....their music is like my li*e story
....and I hate miley....SHE IS NOT WEARING A CARDIGAN IN HER VID......liar
but o* course SHARON likes it
...i mention her name a lot in this blog
SHE DOESN'T MENTION MINE IN HERS SO MUCH
....but wtv.
she likes the other cute guy haha
and its hilarious
oh and hear this quote
I was there...it's about the dude I stalk
"omj. the other day i saw Jeremy ( I WAS WITH AMBAR, AND SHAANTI! I HAVE PROOF!) , and he was with his GF.
and i said
"ITS JEREMY AND *CHOKES*"
YES, i choked while saying his girlfriends name, and yes, i did choke on an iceee.
im pathetic.
lol."

and....my bud Merlin is amazingly awesome haha
everyone thinks so (idk random thing to say)

haha kk I think thats all

and as 4 the revenge plan...ill tell u about it when it works...or *ails
but what i can say is that i* my plan works 4 good things come out o* it

I win
she doesnt
I get my payback
the end o* my singleness

but then I get my major loss

my bestiest bud

so I should stop.....

or at least nnot let it go to *ar

...but then I *ail....

UGH!

1ss DAY=NOT WHAT I EXPECTED

2009-09-09T16:48:00.000-07:00

today was horrible.!!!!
why?...well

NO GYM!- we used to have lunch in our gym and it was awesome...we would sit in our HUGE cubbies and eat...then we'd socialize and walk all over the place....NOW were in a regular ca*iteria...and it was soo *ull!!! i hate it! we can't move or anything
NO CUBBIES!-The only place we had to hold our things.... THEY GAVE THEM TO THE YOUNGER KIDS!!!! who by the way did not paint them or wait weeks *or like we did!!!....NOW we have to carry ALL o* our stu** by hand or book bag....

why would the get rid o* the only part o* this school that made sense????

ugh

I met the Eva kid...shes surprisingly cool

now my head hurts

and im reading *ML

UGH

I HATE MY SCHOOL!!!

OMG

2009-09-08T06:58:00.001-07:00

today im trying 2 not read
so im on utube
and i *ound this!!!!
SHANE DAWSONS ADDRESS (which he posted!!)
12450 Burbank Bl. Suite P #252
Valley Village, CA 9160
IM SOO GONNA GO.....1 day
hahaha

SCHOOL 2MORRO!! -dies-

2009-09-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

last day 2b *ree AND IM SUPPOSED 2B READING!!!
ugh
im at the sitters
I NEED A SITTER!!!
my bestie IS a sitter!!
that means something
......im just going crazy...
i got a new blogskin!! WITHOUT SHARONS HELP!!! YEA!
and this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5FN3hj5t7k
oh and i use this site...called omegle...its soo weird...and cool
i lie 2 ppl saying im a 16 year old named Scarlett and i live in cali
but thats cuz ppl won't tell 13 year olds interesting stories...lol
i gave this chick guy advice!!! lol....u should try it!!

idk wut 2 say.....im gonna read my past blogs!! lol

last day 2b alive...

2009-09-07T18:36:00.000-07:00

SO I HAV 2 SAY A *EW THINGS

i like cake
there arent that many slutz in my skool...hoes...ya (lol)
me like jonas me want 2c winter tour
i need a moto vest with matching gloves and pleather black leggings
and....ya

what else is up?

well

school nooo!!!! KILL ME NOW!
partayy out*it
want candy
hate sleeping early
wont sleep
ugh
i get my best and weirdest thoughts at night....like last night i thought about how evryday is closer 2 the end o* your li*e....AND NO1 EVEN KNOWS WHEN THAT IS!!!
yea..need 2 listen 2 ipod
lub the VMAs comercial..lol
AND TOSH.0...like the soup only 4 internet heres a clip http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nro8C2gRcHA HERES THE ORIGINAL VID http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mWW6kRITEY&feature=fvw
i need a new blogskin....sharon help me?....
sharons blog is soo much more unrealistic but realistic ....positive....I LUV THAT!!
i went 2 the supermarket and this crazy dude said colgate toothpaste turns ppls brains 2 mush...should i belive him?
I GOT JERKY!! (which is amazing cuz i only get jerky like....once a year....ma says its over priced -.-)
ew epic
lol

there was somthing i said but since im going public again....naw

maybe l8r

heh heh

2009-09-02T13:53:00.000-07:00

a lot o* my buds dont blog anymore!!!

im unique...kinda...

theres this one blog that makes me angry (look in my list....u search..i cnt du everything!)

it was on and o**...that was an on....and monday was he o**

HE WAS VERY VERY CLINGY

i couldnt take it kay????

it was complicated

i hate boys

im giving up on love...its stupid

SERIOUSLY.....MY SCHOOL SUCKS!!!

2009-09-02T13:16:00.000-07:00

okay so i heard theres a new kid....AND SHES IN MY CLASS!!

WHYYY!!

okay so in my school we have many di**erent kinds o* people

hoes
slutz
jerks
sickos
losers
*anatics
nerdz
geeks
ppl wit discustingly bad grades
shy people
crazy people (me)
haterz
jockish ppl
somewhat musicians
normal people
etc etc etc

so my school is like any other regular NYC school

which is like any other school exept we dont hav much space and don't have a *ootball *eild or anything like that

so i kinda wonder where she'll end up

.......

anyway i heard her name is eva

pronounced ava

WHATS WITH THAT

i* her name is eva it should be pronounced eva!!! not ava!!

and apperantly she looks like a cross between

one o* my best *riends
and a girl who hates me

and shes pretty.....as i* we dont have enough pretty in this school

AND WE DONT HAVE ANY CUTE DECENT BOYS IN MY SCHOOL

THEY R ALL UGLY AND MEAN!!!...and not nick jonas.....or anything attractive

and who knows what else will happen.....????

especally this year

i learned how 2 kiss..and make out in many ways...by reading these websites on my phone that are o* teen mags.....

i wanted to

try them out on sum awsome dude (impossible)
and bar*

i just read my besties (a di**erent 1) blog....its *un 2 read

whoever reads this (cough no1 cough) should get the link so

http://sharonrocks96.blogspot.com/

every jonas brothers dream i have sucks

they dont like me....... :(

this year will be so.....

......heh heh...its been awhile!

2009-08-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

okay.....well....its been awhile so lemme just hurry up and say what happened so *ar and work o** o* that.....

u should know....

i cant type the letter a*ter E

LOVE LI*E

i got a boy*riend
i got dumped
i got angry
i got another boy*riend
.....and hes clingy......
.....and should stop calling

.......i dont really know what 2 do

i mean.....well.........idk......i dont think going out with someone is a good start 4 me but i can't end it.....i just cant and its absolutly horrible

ENTERTAINMENT

i like avatar......
i like 2 pretend im in the show and try 2 *it in my own character
and i* avatar was real i would be a waterbender
i cant wait 2c the movie
i also like 2 watch Craig *erguison.....that may be mispelled..lol
and degrassi
and i *ound out my cable has *ree on demand

MUSIC

a lot o* new people and i still lub jonas

now LEND ME YOUR EARS 4 NOW I SHALL DISCUSS THE TCAS

okay.......WTH!!!!! i mean the tcas was awsome but WTH!!!!
miley wins 6 awards?!?!?!?!?! why???? shes not that good you know how about people who have actual talent! and what a waste o* awards
.....the jonas brothers got 5 awards.....i like them so i can live with that
twilight got 11 in total.....the movie is good but why is it that people still *ocus on that???? woaw!!!! sick!.......i question our character

i think thats all

oh yea and i went 2 meico! what an amazing place~!!!!

and *ashion camp

and my bestie is gonna be on tv...and i might b 2....yayyyy!

OKAY

2009-06-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

okay...i had a b* 4 2 months and then we broke up cuz he doesn't like me anymore and now he's with another girl (the same week) so I'm plotting revenge

i have great ideas

and michal jackson died

.....yup

im broken you could say

my buds party was soo *un

it was crazzzzyyyyy

lol

YAYYY!

2009-04-13T14:27:00.000-07:00

I found the coolest site while i was on yahooanswers
I
found....
POLYVORE!
Polyvore is a cool site that allows u 2 create stuff
I made clothes!!!...no duh!
take a look at what i made...
http://www.polyvore.com/hippie_luv/set?id=7976099
http://www.polyvore.com/out_america/set?id=7978759
http://www.polyvore.com/accessorize/set?id=7977671
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=7979420
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=7981302

.........kool right???
im gettin closer to designer!!!

YAYYY!

MOVIE...i heve pet peeves 2!

2009-02-27T16:47:00.000-08:00

.......lets get this started

catch phrases ...what are those all about????they're funy at first then it gets killed...they kill it!!!!!!
people with bad socal skills (cough cough josh cough)
Barbie doll collectors ...theres 2 things they say when they see a Barbie 1) OMG!!!! Idon't have that Barbie its sooooo pretty OMG OMG OMG....(hello its just a doll!!!!!!plastic!) 2) Oh I heve that one already..i have 1million so yea...whatevs
personallityless people...LOZAS
people who think they're funny but they really aren't......im all like SHUT UP PLZZZZ!!!!!!
conceded people.....Once again SHUT UP PLZZZ!
sleep...who needs it......well going to sleep before 10:30pm at least
Wack job celebirites like Miley Cyrus, Robert Pattonson,etc.
Akon all his songs sound the same....and hes a jerk
people who act like Edward Cullens real...sure hes hawt...BUT HE'S FICTIONAL...Robert Pattenson isn't edward...and hes CRA-Z!!!!
PPl who hate me but don't even noe me...LIKE WHATS THEIR PROBLEM
classical music....makes me sleep
people who takes things too seriously.....they can't have any friends i swear
Know-it-alls
.........yea.....im out of stuff
oh wait...MY DAD ...BIGGEST PET PEEVE!!!

I made a new saying to put on a tee shirt...."Boggled mind mended?.......nope"

and my last 1...my cacthphrase (i now call myself a hipcrit) "IM SPAZZTASTIC!"

I wanna c ittt!

2009-02-27T16:38:00.000-08:00

I will see the Jonas Brothers 3D concert experience!!!!!!!!!! WITH FRIENDS
or not.......im in trouble again
...............but i will try
did you know they will be going to random theats around the country!!!???????
I cant belive it
i hope i get 2 meat themmmm (spelled rong on pourpose)
lol
-sigh-
awsome jonas
nick is my bf
joe makes me laugh
kevin's an individual

i found this game on icarly.com
PLAY IT!!!!!!!

IMA REBEL...NO IMA SOCAL

2009-02-26T16:54:00.000-08:00

today was assembly
borring...idk y we even have assembly
its made 2 kill time!
lol
I hate hw and tests
i apperently look like nick jonas
.....i have a lot of accounts
im not doing what im suposed to
im writing ythis instead of studing
cuz ima rebel!
lol
i want to make a youtube video
sounds FUNNNNN

ummmmmmmmmm..........i need to do sumthing stupid enough to be interesting........but what?
LOL

UUGGGGHHHH

2009-02-25T15:50:00.000-08:00

ok so notin good is goin on at skool
ugh
my dad is the most annoying man on earth
i dislike him (hes probably the only 1 who doesn't noe dat)
and i tink my mom is starting to too!
YAY
UGH
hes sooo annoying
jonas movie
ima c it
i hope they come to my theatre
not MY theatre but u no what i mean
i chat too much
chat spelling rubs off on everything now
lol
ima turn this blog into a book 1 day
along wit ma journal and other stuff
I CAN'T WAIT!
lol
lub ma buds
super crazzziii
im luveless SPAZZTSTIC!!!!!!!

WHOA!!!

2009-02-21T14:20:00.000-08:00

I haven't written in awhile....
OMG!
Jonas in NYC!...they were so funny on SNL...my show!...and letterman!
yay!
i missed the webcast hey had!
i though it wuz monday at 11
SHARON SAW IT!
THEY ANSWERED HER QUESTION!!!
...........she didn't even call me to tell me..and shes my bff!
I got sooo madd!
lol
......now they'll never know I exist
I'm disigning cotumes 4 the school play!
YAY!
........so awsome!
finally somthing I do means somthing.

I have a youtube account!
but idk if i should make a vid.......we'll see!
I REALLY GOTTA LISTEN TO SOME TOP 40!

HIPER ON FAMBUESA

2009-02-03T18:44:00.000-08:00

whoa...i havent posted in a while
my buddy did though!
its soo kool aid
jobros are not aliens
they came out of the sky though
cuz their angels...........(holy chourus)
yup truth....(HA HA)
http://prudencerip.blogspot.com/
this iz her blog
kool aid
im spazztasic
awsome word riiight
anyway v-day comes soon
u no what that means riiighhht?
HELL 4 ME!
YAAAAYYYY!
so i will get drunk on razzberry soda
and maybe even high on pixie stix on fri the 13 so i ignore the creepy ppl (couples)
and the next day i will be to hung over to pay attension to ceratin things....yup
my skool should hav a dane on fri 13
with all this unlucky stuff like ladders and salt
and luv stff like hearts and flowers
and ppl can only wear
black
pink
gray
red
white
u get the pic
then sum ppl will try to ruin every1's luv life
FUNNNNNN!!!!!

soooooo
ya

i think the evil ppl (government) put less red pixie sticks so they seem like they are the rarest and the best even though they arent
RED PIXIE SITX ARENT ALL THAT OK?
be fair to the other pixie stix u pixists!
GOSH

ok i found out about this awsome site

2009-01-11T13:26:00.000-08:00

I heard about it from my BFFLADFAE and its awsome
its called omgxd.com and i lub it!
you can make your own smileys (my fave think to do)
watch shows, and play games
write forums about what you like
and talk to friends
so go on it

my plan is working............. }:)~

no title

2008-12-20T14:39:00.000-08:00

ok since sofia wants me to write a blog....i will
ummmmm..........

snl rox
amy pholer left *sad*
i am talking to myself as I write this, which adds to my insanity
i am disigning
i need insperation for no reason
i like _____.....or do i
lol
um
oh i dislike my dad
i dream of the beach
....im hungery
i need eclipse from the twilight series
and i am questioning humans poupose in this universe
im also questioning the beyond
im being haunted by another persons blog
i want shopping
my birthday comes soon
my foot hurts cuz its on a heater as i type dis
i found out that my hair looks ok in an updo
i lub david artuleta's voice
i realized i HATE barbie doll colectors
and i reminded myself of the biggest kind of tourture EVER!!!!
oh and i can't make up my mind when it comes to anything
sigh .....the world is passing me by
oh and im a hopeless romantic
congrats orian....

2008-12-10T15:58:00.000-08:00

LOL
Song Of The Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QVkB2utamY

potluck on fri
I WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!
and um
my grades are improving
IM GETTING LOTS O STUFF 4 X-mas!!!!!!

tengo hambre

2008-12-06T12:53:00.000-08:00

HI!!!!!!!!!
im hungery

OMG I FOUND OUT I HAVE A MENTAL DISORDER!!!!!!!!!!!
LOOK!
http://www.vaxa.com/behavior-inattention-disorder.cfm
http://www.add-adhd-help-center.com/add_types_main.htm
those are all the symtoms
LOL

Songs Of The Day (or at least songs u should no about...) :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l06M-dsQf3Q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4loBTNvxXiY

theres more but i 4got

I need to talk more on these blogs

idk my feelings are in a big jumble as always
I'm just thinking a lot more latley about certain things

Oh well..........

I lub my buds!.....they all rock

I've also been working on my fashion carrer
little
by
little

Like i put my disigns in a portfollio
AND PLAY WITH CLOTHES AND PATTERNS AND STUFF ALL THE TIME

....btw.....THX CHERRY!
HA I CALED U CHERRY

SO YEA
DATIT

OH WAIT
HERES WHAT I FEEL....MENTALLY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzfDMe0y8TQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fr02VqwQOA&feature=channel

EEEEEEEEEPPPA!...idk y

2008-12-03T18:02:00.000-08:00

Every Problem had since the last time i blogged and didnt mention iz over
i like this song...........
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Th3lCRwse_c

WHOOOO PARAMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am reading new moon
i am very far in it
idk
i like wrestling my daredevil of an 8 year old cousin.
and this
pick a vid any vid i bet ud laugh
http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/categories/newest/p/8/

um...Fairy

2008-12-01T18:10:00.000-08:00

I LUB FARIES....ive been taking soo many quizzes
want sum?
here...
take sum!
http://wordpress.com/tag/faeries-quizzes/

I am all therse faries...

Water fairy (3 results said so)
Earth fariy (2 results said so)
fairy from heaven
magical fairy
swamp fairy
colorful fairy
fashion fairy
LOL
i will add to this list as i take more quizzes!

YEA............sorry

2008-11-28T20:26:00.000-08:00

Ok i know i haven't blogged in a while
so in the time i wasn't on I....

Went shoppping
saw teilight...AKA AWSOME!
um saw dis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmPmIJyi0sc
HW
personal realization
got a BF
broke up with my bf
saw dis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yu_moia-oVI
I ate food
watched tv
had diversity workshops
watched family guy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=559awb-sniQ
went online window shopping
listened to music
AND I celebrated thanksgiving! I ate I visited ppl AND I saw the thanksgiving day Parade ....no JoBros though......OH my fave part u ask well let me show u! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iXJnOjAGR24

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!

I LUV RICKROLLS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

LOL!

I LUB OBAMA!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=evt0Hti_QX4&feature=related

yea the end iz wierd

but yea

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x38sE-XfztM

UMMM.... SHRIMP!

2008-11-15T12:21:00.000-08:00

I made a Quiz!

http://www02.quizyourfriends.com/step4.php

I went to my buds party yesterday.
IT WAS SOO FUNNN....
her name iz vanessa
we played lazer tag and ate mexican
I was a PARTY ANIMAL!
I lub dis song
SONGS OF THE DAY:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xrr81SRhp_s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSYswqi9ZhQ

LUB MY BUDS...ALL OF THEM!
love love love love
x-tra song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A

lub tha shrimp
and.........

EW!

2008-11-12T17:41:00.000-08:00

today i am grounded...grades...still
UGH!
my life iz ruined
Im soo kunfuesd about boys and life and stuff
I hate how they're so judgemental....well at least most of them are
Songs of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aiJe4gUH0fk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkqTsYJ-Gpo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHji8NAcER8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RGDXelJQzKM
..........me and my feelings huh?
i am in the mood for some fries!

Heyyyyyy......

2008-11-08T14:41:00.000-08:00

I lub weeworld.com
i did not do that crazything i was gonna do
i might though
my heart keeps thumping
and
idk what to feel anymore....well right now im...happy?
ya
Song of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nQEHyFuhG4

wow these things are gettin shorter and shorter

I wanna do somthin spontainious

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........help?

cucko 4 cocoa puffs!

2008-11-07T18:02:00.000-08:00

SONG OF THE DAY!:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cg4X_mbEVlQ
lubit
i ....might.....do..........somthin.......CRAz........but idk
maybe.....
I also am working on writing songs and disigning clothes.
Im in theater club
CRC
and ppls replacment and extra hand in gardening

I LIKE.............POTATO CHIPS
cheddar and sour cream mostly....

random huh?
(ha! I spoke darwinian)

AWSOME SONG!..

2008-11-06T18:07:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbOSirK6T9U&feature=related
but idk y jesse is being all...u no
trying to come back
NOT GONNA WORK
i.......d.....k
<3

im thinking about this friend i had
idk what happened but i no we arnt friends anymore
i kinda miss the convos
..................depressing

WHOO!!!!

2008-11-05T16:37:00.000-08:00

OBAMA! OBAMA! OBAMA!
yay!

Im cheating on my groundedness........cool huh
i feel awsome.....lots of stuff happened

Songs of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvgZkm1xWPE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S38-mjy5NtA

SO.....YEA.....IDK
GO OBAMA!!!

---<3--->

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-04T16:59:00.000-08:00

I may not blog in a whlie...sorry grounded (won't talk abou it)
my life iz ruined... :'''(

my feelings are still jumbled about 1 thing...still won't talk bout' it

I need a therapist

Songs of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D17Hc3_iFnI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yff9nCctMkg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vP7VsPb9ZpY

so yea...luv ya'lls
(I cried)

I AM SUCH A DREAMER

2008-11-02T13:12:00.000-08:00

im pretending with my cousins.....(u dont need to no)
then all of a sudden this song came up in my head!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTQ_89omaAE&feature=related
Its old
but I like it!
I'm eating a sugar daddy
it gets stuck in my teeth....lol

MOVIES, COUSINS, AND CRAZYNESS...OH MY

2008-11-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

LAST NIGHT.........

I got a fendora (if u don't know what it is ....look it up)
I saw HSM3 (If u don't know what it is ur a loser, lowlife, discust to nature.....no offense)
I went with my 9 year old cousin, Gabby, my annoying 7 year old sister Anaira (Uh-Ny-Ruh) my parents, my godbrothers (Torito/Edgard 13, and Ryan 4 ) and their parents
I ate CHEESE FRIES...I lUV FRIES!

HSM3 ROCKED!

but i satarted crying cuz there aren't gonna be anymore (at least with the same characters)

I also heard this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlbB7qt6v_0

this is how I feel...or is it what I want...I can't tell anymore

I know what I want 4 christmas though.......................................

I want a Zac Efron!

YAHHHHHHHH!

2008-11-01T13:50:00.000-07:00

I LIKE...
NOBODY...or do I...jk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBBleNvbXt4
but i was inspired by this vid to talk about what I like....sucha s the song they played in the vid

Colors I Like:

Teal Blue
Purple
Yellow
Dark Pink
Green

Colors I don't like:

Think sheet pink
Detension slip red (NOTICE: its darker than regular red)

I also like:

Boy
friends
T.V
chatting, texting
Talking
Blogging
Shopping
disigning
FOOD!
Guitars
music
writing
and other awsome stuff

My life is still kunfusing and idk whats going on with my emotions.........$ <3>:( }:) ? ! :'( ETC...................

SOFIA ROCKS!!!! \m/

HAPPY HOLLOWEEN!

2008-10-31T19:19:00.000-07:00

this is probably the last day of fun I'll EVER have....lol?
i dont like any1...yet
i actually lstened 2 orian
my costumes rocked (hippie, gypsy)
i hung with my cuzzies and trick or treated
........
im happy!
now i have some stratigies to work on
Shaanti and Emily keep thinking that I like Hamburger Deluxe....(its a code)
and I DON'T
............YA
I DON'T LIKE ANY1
ummmm.....
i feel like everthing going on in my life is eather fake or a wierd sitcom

Song of the day:..(depending on my feelings)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uk_lZ37bUOM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2eUCfREAbw&feature=related
wierd combo...

im so kunfused by dis
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9fciD_II7NI&NR=1
im actually scared now....

well that what holloween does to u...
well gtg play with my cuzzie Gabby (shes 9, CRAZY!!!!, fun!, and LUVABLE+SHE LUBS JOBRO'S 2 (unlike some people -cough sofia cough-)

anyway...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Zc7Wt4WBEE

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-10-30T18:07:00.001-07:00

When i said there were gonna be changes I never thought one of them would be me being scared enough to......(*thinking of feelings to compare*)..OMG I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING...
Y u ask?...
GRADES
mine will suck so don't ask
holloweens 2-morrow

Projo was in a video!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hd-uklv-5g
(andre 3000)

Song of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9vOwc-6t-8

happy B-day cuzzie

my......... life.....is .....so.........ugh............idk anymore

im busy trying 2 figure out my socal status......where do i fit in the map of socal statuses.......(*deep in thought*)

yea......LOL

I'm not jelous anymore
sooo over it...losa

Bi-club?
come on u ppl are so OVERREATING!
ur all too youn 2B Bi
i mean seroiusly B A KID!

wow

2008-10-29T18:24:00.001-07:00

wow...yesterday wuz dull
im not jelous
2-day wuz the last day of soccer
this class wuz awsome
i learned
i lived
and 2day was specal
and fun!
im sooo idk right now......
but in a good way
lol
i can sense somthing coming up....
i lub this song....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_VFlo1EKvs
holloween in 2 days!
gonna b a gypsy....YAY!

music

2008-10-27T16:07:00.000-07:00

i like music
2day wuz cool
gossip and crap
which caused our ELA teacher 2 get pissed @ my class
she said adolecence iz horrable and we r mean
but some Be-Ots-es...DISERVE IT
i lub music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KzwAXlWkk3Y

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnZ73inxiZE

LOL

2008-10-25T15:17:00.003-07:00

I
WAS
DRAMATIC
ON
POURPOSE
JUST SO U NO....LOL

LOL

2008-10-25T15:17:00.001-07:00

...........no comment

2008-10-25T14:24:00.000-07:00

UGH!
im sad
now that heart i own is now little particles of dust...slowly blowing away with the wind....
sigh
whatever....
i guessi should go back to liking jobros
should i?????

me and my sacasm...

2008-10-24T15:02:00.000-07:00

I am in a good mood and will share some sarcasm.......
well 2day we saw a movie 4 creative arts... It was about Eygpt...ugh

Announcer dude (AD): We discovered 2 lanes similar 2 the ones in bowling.
Me: WHAT?? The Egyptians played bowling?!?!?!?!?!?!
AD: Then I had an idea...
Me: 2 PLAY BOWLING RIGHT!!!?
AD: I realized thats where they slept
Me: WHAT?!?!?

L8R....

(I hear knock on the auditorium door fafter seeing a skeleton in the movie)
Me: AHHH IT'S THE SKELITON....IT'S GONNA GET US!!!
Sofia:.......(stares @ me like im crazy)
Me: AND THE BUGS!!!!
THE TEAMED UP!
THE SKELITON PICKED THEM UP AT THE AMERICAN MUSEUM OF NATURAL HISTORY AND THEY CARPOOLED!!!
CUZ CARPOOLINGS GOOD 4 THE ENVIORMENT!......

I also like his song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XzUNOvj8EVE
and this song is in my head
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iYOOuJLuaY&NR=1

ya
thats all folks!

UGH

2008-10-23T15:22:00.000-07:00

not my best day

test
principals assembly
suckish job during elective
crushing crush reality hit me....HARD enough to break my heart..
i dont get guys
I NEED 2 GET GUYS
BUT NOT GETTING THEM ANNOYS THEM
UGH
YA
at least there are new m=smiley faces on google......they're cute
and uhhh......
this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_YhhQuAYKQ&feature=related

simlple.....simply, simple....NOT!

2008-10-21T17:31:00.000-07:00

2 days, no hw...YESSSSS
dads mean...
Hey!
have I ever mentioned that I think I'm failing math
well,
NOW I KNOW I'M FAILING MATH!!!...thats all im sayin...
Prof Nalley: Any questions, comments, concerns , sarcasm....
ME (not really) : Well this is sooo usfeul i mean im totally gonna use this later in life...I'm gonna walk into a gorcery store and ask 4 the n of lays and doritios!!!!

boring trip 2day but i made things better
I joked a lot
(me looking @ large scale bugs in dirt (fake) )
Me: AHHH LARGE BUGS
(seeing dead owl (also fake) )
Me: The bugs did that
Sofia: No ambar the bugs did not do that
l8r
ProJo: Jonothan La is in ur group
Me: NOOO! hes gonna eat me!
ProJo: What? (looks at me)
Me: THE BUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya

(luv me sexy (4 ever)..inside joke..ill tell 1 day)

saw this vid...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JR6QaelmlpQ

FRIDAY!!!!

2008-10-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

Friday was the best day ever

I told the person I liked that I like him....AND NOTHING HAPPENED!!!!!!!YAY...no really Im happy! (I'll mention y when I feel like it)
I hung out with my buds
I went to Sharonrocks96's house to watch Prom Night......I laughed at the end
I went to my uncles house to sleep over
I stayed up late
I ate a HUGE-O pizza
I watched these funny vids and heard 1 song I like

Song-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsOBVBaflt0
funny vids- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdwOoinuJi0 (Ozzy Osborne sings "take me out to the ball game"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mq1ob05OiG4 (The soup: womanizer)

I saw "The Breakfast club" u should see it!
and Saturday Night Live

............................................................YAY!

............................yea

GO OBAMA!!!!!!!

2008-10-15T15:16:00.000-07:00

YEA.....GO OBAMA......WE NEED CHANGES
I HATE SCHOOL I TINK ME FAILIN AGAIN
UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH..........
IM SOOO DEPRESSED
EVERYTHINGS WRONG WITH ME.....IT'S PAINFUL....
I'LL LIST 4 U....
I'M....

IRRISPONSIBLE
HAVE ISSUES
SHORT
BAD IN GRADES
SHY....TERRIBLY..PAINFULLY SHY....DONT LOOK AT ME
MEAN...SOMTIMES
TALK TOO MUCH
BAD LISTENER
EASYLY DISTRACTED
UNORGINIZED
MESSY
UUUUGGGGHHHH

WHAT AM I GONNA DO....

(I HAVE ALL THESE ISSUES AND I STILL ALMOST GOT ASKED OUT)

BUT I'M SHY.....AND STUFF I CAN'T MENTION....YET (SOOOOOOO COMPLICATED)

I NEED THERAPY.............SAM?

ONE OF THOSE DAYS.....

2008-10-14T17:58:00.000-07:00

TODAY...
SCHOOL...
HW....
YEA...

I'M HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS IN WHICH

I KNOW I'LL NEVER GET A BF SO I WATCH JOBRO VIDS AND DAYDRAM AND STUFF. (AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH I LUB THEM)
I WANNA WATCH MORE NIGAHIGA VIDS
I WRITE IN ALL CAPS
I READ MORE TWILIGHT
........................I'M A SAD PERSON (NOT THE EMOTIONAL KIND, THE LOSER KIND)

BUT YEA THIS IS MY LIFE

I REALLY REALLY WANT A NICK JONAS......UGH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIm8LZn17fU&NR=1 ~LOOKIE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i89XTwhXdJo&feature=related ~I WANT THIS 2

This song is in my head....

2008-10-13T17:09:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2QKLdzqmYLA
yup I luv this song
......................me the hopeless romatntic eh?

lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CazV-Yfy9Ns&feature=related
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oi9VzgDseL8&feature=related

NOTHIN, NADA

2008-10-13T14:33:00.000-07:00

today I did nothing but

wash dishes
read twilight
do hw
watch Tv
this
CRC

yup

but I LUV THIS VID I SAW ON THE SOUP YESTERDAY http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QVD7E4X0hF8

WATCH IT!

and I luv twilight ....its....its....IDK how to put it..... um .......like....this ...person Mary Murphy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izLmuHMjIWM

I'm soo happy I hav a crush on some1 again!

LOOK ISN'T JHON HORRABLE LOL http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Igz9oVAuiFo&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpHWSqBcR3E&feature=related

ummmmmmm.........why is Kim Kardashian in this??????

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fZHou18Cdk&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZhNJfc1LjLU&NR=1

LOL...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MymMhj3Vgww&feature=related THEIR GONNA HAVE A MOVIE....YAY! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXFCPUlGYEM&feature=user

IM SUCH A LOSER!!!!!!!!

HEYYY!

2008-10-12T16:52:00.000-07:00

Um yea I went to youth gruop on fri cuz I misses 2 weeks of it ppl were happy 2c me agagin (at least theres one place ppl care if I'm there or not) buy it was cool, I ate a soft taco (I like tacos) the next day I went apple picking and got to

socalize
eat
pick apples (duh)
socalize
eat
pet donkeys
saocalize
and eat
I ate a caramel apple, regular apple, cheese fries, and ice cream

I had fun.....

I'm reading twilight (FINALLY) and luv the way it looks when u type it!im up to pg 200

I'm seeing lots of Nigahiga vids on youtube latly. THE DUDES HALARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!

heres a link http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=nigahiga

ugh that person I like.....the whole crush thing is a lose , lose situation he'd NEVER say yes to me.....

I'm still thinking of changing my backround, any ideas? u can help by showing me stuff from Blogskins.com

UGH IM SUCH A HUGE LOSER LOWLIFE CAT-LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there goes my self esteem......

but theres 1 thing In have to listen to and thats

"Don't hold back your tears but don't let your tears hod you back..."

and I thank orian for being so supportive and understanding.......u help a lot!

2008-10-08T15:15:00.000-07:00

I'm Demi
Sharonrocks96 is Selena
oh wait Selenas dating Nick
ummm...I GTG KILL HER....
OH IM ON TV!!!!
hi mom....
yea I'll go find my flaming dagger (jk) lol
BLOODY MURDER!!!!!!!!!!

UGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-10-08T14:31:00.000-07:00

so today was.....ok?
I'm sooooo jelous of those other bloggers who are deep and waaayyyy more interesting than I am
CUZ I ALWAYS POST VIDS!!!!!!!!!!!
If u know me give me comments (verbally, personally)
on what I can improve
sooo.......
yea

I got humilliated today...yay
..not really
but
I got revenge by pulling the jerk who made fun of me's HUGE ears...now they look BIGGER (no offense dude)
but he diserved it
so did luverboy
not mine
somone elses
OMG!!!! luverboy has a bro.......... i was like wow

I'm such a loser :)
serously........

OH YEA AND I REALIZED NO GUY (WHO IS WORTH LIKING) LIKES ME ALTHOUGH I LIKE 2 PEOPLE
IM GONNA GROW OLD ALONE AND BE A LONLEY CAT LADY ....... UGH

U R SOO LUCKY ALEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GTG BREATHE.........

TUESDAY , TUESDAY, TUESDAY!

2008-10-07T15:08:00.000-07:00

So today was CRC back in action....lol
in electives I had to say a paragraph from Hamlet by: Shakebere
.....so anyway
I FORGOT MY LINES
CUZ I WAS SOO NERVOUS
UUUUGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
yea...embarrassing-uh

But is k cuz at least I'm not like her
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aR75L08SBHo

I like this song....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNnx-obOY1Y
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M8QvLJO8spQ&feature=related

yea.....2 days in a row of embarrassment.... UGH!

UGH...YAY

2008-10-06T16:38:00.000-07:00

HOY WAS HORRABLE CUZ SOMTHING HORRABLE HAPPENED IN MATH...if anyone makes fun of me 4 that or thinks I'm horrable...OH WELL it happens to every1 and if u stop being my friend becuse of that than ur not a tru friend cuz my REAL FRIENDS knew I had this problem and treat me exacly the same ( I luv ya'lls u r so awsome and supportive)

BUT IM HAPPY CUZ CRC (or CWC) IS BACK AND I CAN'T WAIT TO BE SCARLET AGAIN!

I LUV VIDS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1P5LEuJsJs (4 U JERKS)

I LUV THIS...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBlsruHtP4M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=et5C4OKNTeM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvIvp5JLIug&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06ZsftPImew
MORE SPAGETTI CAT!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szwMuxmT9nE&feature=related
AND MY PERSONAL FAVE....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kh0tncnBiRQ
LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dI6vsz97jaE
eww..what is Heidi trying to do...her implants r gross...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Of-DNa_FqTs
ewww...what is miley trying to do...she is gross

ummm......... yea
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whiodBT6IxE
wait theres more.......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32J1wz2t-gU

THIS IS MY SHOW!

OMG!!!!!!!!

2008-10-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

YEATERDAY........Well school was ok but creative arts was better we went to city collage and looked 4 gargioles, Sharonrocks96 was with me. (she doesnt like it when I add her real name....lol) Anayway I had lots O' fun especally cuz I got to help set up 4 the dance.
After class my grandma brought me and Sharonrocks96 (or Sharonrocks96 an I) to my uncles house where we ate LoMein and played with my uncles chuwawa. (Mickey) . We then went to Old Navy and bought stuff. When we got back for the dance 9 minutes after it started so I dressed into my black and white outfit as soon as possible. I had fun....I got compliments (I luv compliments) although many people complained, I stayed positive and enjoyed myself. I'm satisfied....

TODAY.... I DID NOTHING! I STAYED AT THE BABYSITTERS.
but I made a friend in Denver, in TEXAS...I think (using one of those fan numbers u call...I used Demi Lovato's) LOL...AWSOMENESS...
I also listened to music for 9 hours....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J8aBKs9Fb0U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Mi10ujLq3M&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIyaCFyCShM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8Ip3Uyw_Os

This is a movie...
http://video.supernovatube.com/play.php?viewkey=961695bd1c1d9816d0c0

PS....

2008-10-02T16:12:00.000-07:00

NO DATE 4 THE DANCE (NO DUH!!!!) I WISH.......lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8QrAS8Q1HY&feature=related
but I have friends and 2 awsome outfits so..............
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P34SHWr_QQ&feature=related
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PshQDuwt_UI&feature=related
but still...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYb_rv_bZPs&NR=1
BUT I DON'T NEED A GUY..........
but it would be cool if I had 1.........a hot 1

IM SO SAD I KEEP LOOKING UP PICS OF NICK KISSING MILEY AND SELINA......UGH
http://a.bebo.com/app-image/6902973722/5411656627/PROFILE/i.yaquiz.com/img/q/u/08/05/05/5007655936a7343800787l.jpg
but this pic makes it better....

second day of freedom (the last one too)

2008-10-01T10:47:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZARX6bbD6c

IF I WAS INVISABLE YEAAAA.

Clay Aiken is gay

but idc

he's awsome

(this was written yeaterday)

Today....

school, chatting, outfit prepeation, and this song

\http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3REA6FCyLKg

and this story for this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMiq-lnlr78&feature=related

CRAP! It involves Selina...whatevs......UGH!!!!!!!

OH and Every1 keeps talking about twilight and paramroe (cuz they sing a song for the movie)

I heard their son thanks to somebody!

I'm so glad I have people like Sofia to hang out at the dance with me cuz my other friends don't wanna go so THANK U SOFIA (and every1 else who is my bud and is going with me) U ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still can't wait

awsome outfits!

STILL LUV YA SOFIA.....

I Feel OJS today...

2008-09-30T11:01:00.000-07:00

UUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

2008-09-29T15:04:00.000-07:00

MY DAD SUCKS this is the last time I've forgiven him 4 what hes done!

He's rude
mean
unreasonable
unfair
cheap
crappy
suckish
nasty
friendless
undeserving....

What did he do that made me so mad?

WELL........

I wanted Sharon to come to my house so I called her ma and she said ok BUT HE SAID THAT I HAVE TO ASK HIM FIRST SO I DID ...AND HE SAID NO!!!!!!!! So I call my ma and she says if someone can pick her up she can stay so I did BUT HE TAKES HER HOME ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!

WTF.............he always has to have everything his way!!!!!!!!!

UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH

he always has to know what I'm doing....

and he just interuppted me so I CAN CLEAN MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!

I STRONGLY DISLIKE HIM!!!!!!!!!!

This makes me wish I only had a mom....

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!....lol

2008-09-28T16:26:00.000-07:00

I LUV THIS SCHOOL
I LUV THIS BLOG
I LUV MY LIFE
I LUV THIS SONG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WpKKsrlpBE&feature=related
I LUV THIS SONG 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKVmyKP2LKM&feature=related
It's obvious that im in a good mood
OH AND I ALSO LOVE NICK JONAS..... BUT THEN AGAIN DON'T I ALWAYS!
TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE........

Today is sunday!

2008-09-28T11:21:00.000-07:00

I came home from my uncles....
I wanna go to the Midevil festival.....( at Fort Tryan)

I ADORE this commercal!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5K3unrDAE1o
I laugh every time!

Yesterday....

2008-09-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was HAWT! I had soo much fun it all started after lunch (its not like anything good happens in class) I went to photography with Sharonrocks96. We took some awesome pics outside then I played in the wet playground! Then me and Sharonrocks96 (or Sharonrocks96 and I) used Picasso2 to make them AWSOME! we changed things with colors and stuff. Then we went over to the people in knitting (I stole their yarn and begged for them to make me something) When me and Sharonrocks96 (or Sharonrocks96 and I) left school we went to 42 st. and walked straight to Mc.Donalds we bought 3 med fries, 1 small fries, 3pc chicken selects and a Mc.Chicken,.....We were hungry...LOL then we went to her house. (we talked the entire time (my grandma kept telling us to shut up) At Sharonrocks96's house we hung out and watched "Suite life on deck" YAY! and we did other stuff too. Then I went to my grandmas house and saw the presidental debate (Mc.Cain SUX!)

Then I got invited to sleep over my uncles house so i did so I could spend time with my cuzzies (cousins). I finally saw David Letterman and The Soup! and then I saw Fools Gold.

MY FAVE MOVIE!

2008-09-25T18:16:00.001-07:00

http://www.justin.tv/jonasbrothers/49991/full_webcast
It's an hour long!

I like this song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pOlCYtFZcSY

Life.......Vida

2008-09-25T13:48:00.000-07:00

Hoy el presidente de D.R veni a mi escuela! The president of D.R came to my school...whoever needed the translation suks! (stupid non-spainish talkers) (J.K) I didn't wanna go to school today.. I tried to pretend in sick. But the dude was cool and it was ok...
ummm oh and AND the dance isn't tomorrow...its next week! aw. OH and yesterday I SAW DANCING WITH THE STARS!!!!! FINALLY!!! and not only that but THE JOBROS PREFOMED!!!I had no clue they were going to on that day!! weird huh? its happened b4 though once when I saw Ellen (I can sense when the JoBros are gonna be on tv!!!...what an awsome power!) I wanted to watch David Blane do another stupifing and awsome stunt when the MOST HORRIBLE thing appeared on my T.V...George W. Bush!!! (tan tan taaa)
He starts talking about our economy's down fall and how we need to prevent it from getting any worse....I'm all like WTF ehy are you telling us this? its your fault it's happening because you keep spending all our money on WAR!!! (stupids!!!)
I changed the channel so I can watch Total Drama Island...I CAN'T BELIVE HEATHER }:( MADE TRENT THINK GWEN HATED HIM AND THAN KISSED HIM!!!!! LIKE WTF! THEN WHEN THEY FIND OUT THE TRUTH TRENT IS VOTED OUT OF THE SHOW!!!! Then the stupid host didn't even let them kiss goodbye!!! Trent and Gwen were such a cute couple!

LOL MOLLY!!! ( U no what I mean when I say AIRPLANE!!!) I'm sooo evil }:)
heres ur song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9btjnrzp3o8

And Anissa showed me an awsome song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckI8ET1QSbc

this songs stcuk in my head
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_l7J41WLrw

Thinking...

2008-09-24T17:00:00.000-07:00

It's soo wierd thinking about how life works, why things happen...., what life will be like when we are old or even long gone, what will happen between ur BFFs, How will you look , what will you be, will you remember all the times we've had, Will you miss your life, Who will you lose, will you change,....I don't know why but these thoughts run through my head....I'm scared of change...Why must we grow so quickly?

I'M SOOOO HAPPY...IDK WHY...

2008-09-24T14:23:00.000-07:00

I'M A REALLY HAPPY EVEN THOUGH I SUCK AT MATH, I'M TOO SCARED TO TOUCH THE BALL IN SOCCER, AND THE SKIT THINGY MY HALL DID SUCKED HORRABLY!!! I don't really want to meet the presedent of D.R... it's gonna be all musical and presidental all stuff...THATS WIERD.
I LUV THIS VID THAT ANISSA SHOWED ME!
we actually know some of this stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6cAs1YBELmA
Also on Friday from 4-6 ( U no until the dance) if I can't stay in the building, I might go to Mc Donalds with a group of people (FINALLY!)
+I'm hall rep!

I'm sorry Bi-Polars that comment I made yesterday was mean...so sorry (u still know who u are...)
I MISSED DANCING WITH THE STARS AGAIN (Cuz of me mean, annoying dad)
I WANNA WATCH THE SOUP
AND TOTAL DRAMA ISLAND
AND FLAPJACK
MAYBE CHOWDER
AND FAMILY GUY
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today...UGH

2008-09-23T17:50:00.000-07:00

I MISSED THE FIRST DAY OF DANCING WITH THE STARS!..in engenieering they mentioned somthing about small black holes being formed what if they GROW and suck in everything! Ahhhh! but they said it's a myth. I DON'T GET MY MATH H.W. IDK why we even have math...nobody will use a lot of this stuff when they grow up! The dance is in 3 days...I'm going with friends! WHO NEEDS BOYS 4 THIS CRAP ANYWAY! I'm just gonna have some fun with my buds. And is it just me or was it FREEZING in school today! Um thats it it think...
BI-POLAR PEOPLE SUK! (u know who u are)